.....bread.......

i went to the kitchen
to make me some lunch

there was the end of a loaf of bread
i sliced it, it made two slices.

i put the empty bag in the garbage

i took out of the fridge ham and cheese

i looked at the tray
and lo and behold
the slices bread had disappeared!
i looked to the right
i looked to the left
i looked in the garbage where i had thrown the the bag
no bread anywhere
i looked in the fridge

i said i am really going coo coo
i took a deep breath
....................
....................
and then the toaster goes click.

poem from the rooftops of iran

sometimes

sometimes... often... always...
i crave feeling
its like being
not yet dead.

the meaning of everything

as i was decending the bus my eyes panned up from her breasts to her shoulders up to her eyes.
i saw her eyes move up to meet mine.
and they met and in one second the meaning of a million years of humanity, of life, the universe and everything ...

words to think about

Oliver Sacks; the man who mistook his wife for a hat stand.
acquired situational narcissism.
do numbers exist without somebody thinking them?
conflict between the primal brain and the educated verbal programation.

who

she is an Orange
i will squeeze
and drink her juice and tears

she is a Tornado
i will stand in her path
she can destroy me

about

when i think about N.. my soul goes so soft that even the people i should hate i just softly push to the side and don't bother about them.

to exist

when she looks at me in the eyes i really believe i have the right to exist.

poor brain

i had told myself i would give my brain a rest.
i find myself thinking...
oh no, there i go again

brave or stupid

brave mister shrock gets himself fired for falling in love.
or simply stupid
and she doesn't love him back
anymore

it was Archie

i just wrote the previous post off the top of my head.
Archie was my schoolmate. he was one day younger than me. his birthday was December 8. he was hot. he put ice cubes on his head. he died.

oh my God

this afternoon the realization that i exist suddenly came upon me and i thought , oh my god its a mistake. everything i have done was wrong. so i apologize. the last six years at work. they never happened. i was supposed to have died when i was eight. the fact that i didn't has created a glitch in the universe. i am so embarrassed. i have a terrible headache. i am very sorry.

girl from far away

dear girl from far away,
we walked and talked and visited pieces of paris. we explored the beginnings and ends of times and places and things. and it was good. then we said goodbye. and was there a glitch? between the left cheek right cheek as our lips passed over each other, was there a hesitation?
later you communicate to me you hope that i'm not hoping for more than friendship. though i hadn't thought of it, now that the idea has entered my consciousness i can not delete it. i think of the sensation that might have been had our lips touched...
... and now there is the emptiness.

life

life is a joke
some people dont get it

the meaning of life?

what is stronger
than two insane people
looking into each others eyes...
and suddenly understanding the meaning of life, the universe
and everything...

am i dead?

...when i thought i would love her until i die...

...i did succeed in killing that love...
am i dead now? i feel so.
her beauty is dead too.
there is only a faint memory of it...
...in her sad eyes.

Sometimes?

sometimes you should just shut your brain down
and enjoy the euphoria of blind animal desire

sad

yes

yes, he should have said
yes, to the soft intense plea, pleas, please
in her eyes...

universe

each person lives in the universe he creates by selective perception.

soft

oh the pleasure of feeling a woman's body go soft at the touch of the hand!

dark eyes

as the bus moved past the road on the right my head turned
and my eyes fell into her deep dark eyes
and there was an explosion
...and since then the world has been turning backwards...
and with my eyes i said yes yes and yes
to her, please understand me, please love me and please, give me a child?
and i abandonned all logic and common sense...
we do not live on the same planet

lioness

she turned about me like an angry lioness in heat. her expression was black. she sat in the seat behind us.

i was talking to the assistante sociale. she's from guadaloupe. mm beautiful young thing?

the lioness swore revenge.
the next day she did it.
but still i love her.
i can not feel angry with her.

friends

friends are people you can't hide your faults from.

many things in the big store

yesterday i went to the very big store and walked about looking at all the many things i dont want to buy. some of the things i kinda wish i would want to buy and some of the things to eat were i hungry.
but mostly i was very happy to have the empty space these things would use had i them.

Stupid Dream

i was preparing to get ready to catch my flight to far away. i couldn't find my things and then i had to get something else somewhere and then i had to take the bus that takes the handicapped workers and then it was already gone and i was in the dark countryside and i could see the lights of the city in the distance and i was frustrated, i will never catch my flight ... and then started thinking ... i bet this another one of those stupid dreams where everything you try to do you
can't do, you can't run because your legs wont move ...
so i said to myself i'm just going to wait a bit ...
and sure enough i gradually woke up ...
and i was right.

Firestone

Go read Lorine's article about Firestone's slaves in Liberia.
http://petitefeedherbe.blogspot.com/

Save My Future Foundation (SAMFU)

FIRESTONE: THE MARK OF SLAVERY

This document is the result of an inquiry into the Firestone Rubber Plantation Company's 69yrs of operation. It is published in fulfillment of SAMFU's mission to protect the environment, facilitate nature conservation that embraces the promotion of social justice, equality and respect for human rights.

This report mirrors the activities of one of the oldest companies in Liberia, Firestone, which was established in 1926. The report raises three issues human rights abuses, unfair labor practices and environmental pollution.

planet earth

i am nowhere

the moon is  full
i can not sleep
i dare not speak
what i feel
i dare not feel
 what i feel
i can only wait
until the end...

of all.

screw

if it dont work screw harder.

blue eyes

her beautiful blue eyes
like twin rivers
kept me awake all night
i wanted to follow them thru spaces
thru space
into another universe...
a clearness... between water and air
i dont know her name
i want to
i must know her
i want to fly into her
i want to fly with her

the dream

i was falling from a bridge into the seine... i wasn't sure if i had jumped or fell or was pushed... i was thinking this is it... the big THE END, it's over... and then i thot i could swim to the shore and then i was waking up and thinking i should take off my shoes and i could yell and nobody would hear me or they would hear me and "faire semblent" to not hear me and would i yell help or would i yell au secours and i could swim to the bank but i wouldn't be able to get up the wall and so this would be the death the end et on en parle plus.. and would somebody eventually notice?

routine

death is the ultimate routine.
and once you're dead you'll probably stay dead for a long time.

Lorine page

brown day

today was a brown day for me. last nite i wanted to dig a hole in the earth and lie in the bottom of it.

tiger dream

i dreamed we had a pet tiger at the CAT where i work. everybody loved the tiger. the tiger loved everybody. then the tiger died. everbody was so sad.

Full Moon

I got up every hour to pee during the night. I must have lost five kilos. The swinging of the tides inside my body.

She calls me limpy.

I sprained my ankle
the ladder swung around
to my surprise I couldn't fly.
at least I didn't die.
but then
I didn't really try.

gone and back again

We were gone to the good US of A and today we are back again.

Fly Away

To day we shall fly away into the sky and redescend to the earth on a different continent.Wow.The child of the wife's brother is coming with us.

I had a dream

Sheep; oxygen; O3;
The sheep were being crowded into a dip tank. That's ok, it's part of sheep's life. The problem was, they were inhaling a form of oxygen they couldn't exhale. It would build up inside them then of course they would panic as they couldn't get rid of it. I was thinking O3, but it couldn't be that, because that's ozone. Then there was something about the Sheep Jesus, that I tried to explain or understand.

Yo

I dont know why but I like this picture
http://www.flickr.com/photos/veronover/

National Geographic

You must go here to see the best of National Geographic Photos.
http://www.6park.com/gz1/messages/25137.html

Last of my uncles

Today the last of my uncles died. The end of an era.

Bittersweet

What a smile as Mister President resigns. CHARLIE HARRITY / AP

Blurry

airbus 380

sunday i saw this one fly

five french children

this photo of mine reminds me of the other five

When They Were Young

Enter Exhibition -- When They Were Young: A Photographic Retrospective of Childhood (Library of Congress Exhibition)


five amish children by A. Aubrey Bodine
I like this picture very much.

Virg going.

Virg going where he wants to be. ----------- Photo by Lorine

Old

It's ok to be old. Don't try to hide it.

I said that

Be where you are!

today is another day

wow

Don't Ask

Nous ne demandons pas ce que la société peu faire pour nous aider, (les handicapés) mais nous demandons ce que nous pouvons faire pour aider cette société, qui va un peu mal.

la lune

Je vais demander la lune en esperant qu'on me trouvera une petite place sur la terre.

blues

After a week of depression from my work where there is fighting or infighting going on I feel rather depressed. I think I need to find a new job. But where o where shall I find the energy to do it.

sunday

today is a sunday without much sun. i dreamed about my work. it's not all that helpful. Yesterday we were to the musée d'Orsay. I think shall start writing with capital letters at the beginnings of sentences. Our friend from the US of a is here.

robbed again

at my work we were robbed again over the weekend. a chain cut a riding lawn mower stolen. what will happen next. it has turned cold again. makes for drearyness.

another day

today was another day. lucky me the universe is still here. i was having a conversation yesterday that was interupted and it doesn't want to leave my brain in peace.

robbed

today at work at the CAT we were robbed. a fence was cut and lots of machines were stolen.

happening

so what is happening or rather not happening. i clicked publish and it didn't. my oh my!

next day

now i supose i will have to try to think of something interesting to scribble. i worked today. then later the evening came.

try three

This time the time should be right.

second post

This is the next thing i'm saying. WOW

in the beginning

This is the start of my blog. WOW